Bella Dancer
ELEMENTAL EARTH: Domain of the Body; Realm of Dance
The Element of Earth And all that grows out of it Nourish and flourish. Grow dormant and flourish again! Decline. Decay. Demise. Death....
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Memoir Table of Contents
Welcome Aboard!
--"Izzy, how did you start dancing?"
--"What got you into martial arts?"
--"What kind of dancer/martial artist/writer are you?
--"How do you deal with brain damage, bodily injury and
C-PTSD, yet still dance, write, train, live the way you do?"
--"How do you still find joy and beauty amidst pain and loss?"
--"Wow, you should write your memoirs!"
This Is My Story
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Bella Dancer
- Sep 13, 2022
- 20 min
WHEN THE UNIVERSE GIVES ME "NO" - I Hunt For "YES"
I drove all the way out there for nothing. Twice. It's almost a half-hour drive to my dentist's office, which is annoying in itself, but...
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Bella Dancer
- May 10, 2022
- 4 min
INJURED. Again.
Annnnd I'm down again. Out of commission. Back on my ass. One of my old trusty, musty injuries has flared up to the point where there is...
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Bella Dancer
- Jan 2, 2022
- 6 min
ME & THE TREE - Old, Beautiful, Broken Creatures
People like to call me broken. Although it’s not a word that I prefer to identify with, I suppose it could be argued that way. On the...
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Bella Dancer
- Dec 22, 2021
- 6 min
20 YEARS AGO TODAY - The One Year Anniversary of My RebirthDay
It's the Winter Solstice, so y'all know what that means around here. I keep wanting to write another 20 Years Ago Today post about how...
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Bella Dancer
- Nov 3, 2021
- 15 min
LOST GIRLS: Rise Again. And Again. And Once More - My Lindsey Stirling Journey 4
Continued from MY JOURNEY WITH LINDSEY STIRLING: --THE MUSE IN THE MOON: A Thank You to My Muse & My Supporters --BRAVE ENOUGH: To Fight...
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Bella Dancer
- Oct 28, 2021
- 14 min
TRANSCENDING INTO LIGHT: And Taking Flight - My Lindsey Stirling Journey 3
Continued from MY JOURNEY WITH LINDSEY STIRLING: --THE MUSE IN THE MOON: A Thank You to My Muse & My Supporters --BRAVE ENOUGH: To Fight...
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Bella Dancer
- Jul 26, 2021
- 5 min
STRUGGLE - Watching Nature Persevere
A few weeks after my big car wreck, my dad sent this to me. It became one of the main metaphors of my recovery from severe whiplash, TBI...
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Bella Dancer
- Jun 10, 2021
- 2 min
I AM ANTI-NEO - A Poem About Falling
What the fuck am I doing? I have no clue anymore I especially don't know why I pace this ledge And its crumbling edge That flirts with...
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Bella Dancer
- Jan 31, 2021
- 15 min
THE GREAT "WHITE BELLY DANCER" WAR OF 2014 - And How It Finished Off My Career
In May 2013, I had a seizure onstage. It was just one of those little blip-of-a-seizures, but in the middle of a dance, a blip is a big...
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Bella Dancer
- Jan 7, 2021
- 7 min
"DO YOU SEE ROADBLOCKS OR OPPORTUNITIES?" the abled male said to the disabled female.
I love when the abled attempt to use their simple metaphors on the disabled, and then run in a cricket-chirping fashion when we respond....
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Bella Dancer
- Jan 2, 2021
- 16 min
SIT-REP: Holiday Hell 2000 -The Car Wreck Journals
If you're just joining us, the following SitRep journal entries and letters to my loved ones come from this car crash. If you prefer this...
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Bella Dancer
- Dec 25, 2020
- 13 min
2020 WTF: Part 2 - My Holiday WTF Season 20 Years Ago
Continued from: --MY 20TH ANNIVERSARY HOLIDAY TRIGGER DAY: WT-Actual-F, 2020?! --Want to start at the beginning of this anniversary...
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Bella Dancer
- Dec 25, 2020
- 8 min
MY ANNIVERSARY HOLIDAY TRIGGER DAY: WT-Actual-F, 2020?!
🔥Written yesterday...left to ferment overnight...still highly combustible.🔥 Before we get to the mushy stuff: 🎄This one is for The...
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Bella Dancer
- Dec 21, 2020
- 10 min
I DARE YOU - My 20th RebirthDay
Twenty years ago this morning, I thought I'd be waking up like usual. I thought I'd scribble my thoughts into my journal for fifteen...
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Bella Dancer
- Dec 2, 2020
- 2 min
CONFINED CREATIVITY - From Your Home Into Mine
One of my best friends just lost access again to her dojo, right when she'd really gotten back into the flow. Naturally, she can do the...
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Bella Dancer
- Jun 29, 2020
- 9 min
WABI-SABI - THE BEAUTY OF IMPERFECTION: Learning to Love That Person in the Mirror
**WABI-SABI: Which includes the Japanese art of transforming broken things into beauty, like Kintsugi, which repairs broken pottery with...
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Bella Dancer
- Jun 29, 2020
- 12 min
DOGS, CATS & THREAD SPOOLS: Complex PTSD on Frontal Lobe Damage
“You know how you get scared or worried or nervous but you don’t want to be scared or worried or nervous so you push it to the back of...
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Bella Dancer
- Mar 1, 2020
- 17 min
TECHNO-LINGO MEDICAL MUMBO-JUMBO: How It Actually Impacts My Life
Sometime 2001 My neuropsychologist: You have to treat your brain as though it is a four-year-old. Me: Hah. A four-year-old who’s been...
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Bella Dancer
- Feb 19, 2020
- 8 min
WHAT WAS AND WASN'T INJURED: Proving the Prognoses
I was astounded the other day to learn from one of my students and closest friends that, upon first hearing about me, she had been told I...
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