Bella Dancer
WOOT! Website Organization: Achieved
It is done. Whufffff. Remember last year when I obliterated my old website? I got really frustrated with the worlds of Advertising,...
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Memoir Table of Contents
Welcome Aboard!
--"Izzy, how did you start dancing?"
--"What got you into martial arts?"
--"What kind of dancer/martial artist/writer are you?
--"How do you deal with brain damage, bodily injury and
C-PTSD, yet still dance, write, train, live the way you do?"
--"How do you still find joy and beauty amidst pain and loss?"
--"Wow, you should write your memoirs!"
This Is My Story
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Bella Dancer
- Sep 18, 2022
- 3 min
ELEMENTAL WATER: Domain of the Mind; Realm of Story
The Element of Water And That Which Contains It One droplet. A lily-pad pond. The glassy lake--or 10,000. The jagged-smooth...
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Bella Dancer
- Sep 13, 2022
- 20 min
WHEN THE UNIVERSE GIVES ME "NO" - I Hunt For "YES"
I drove all the way out there for nothing. Twice. It's almost a half-hour drive to my dentist's office, which is annoying in itself, but...
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Bella Dancer
- Jun 19, 2022
- 18 min
"WRITE WHAT YOU WANT TO READ" THEY SAID - So I Do
Continued from: --GLADIATORS HIJACK MY LIFE - How I Started Writing My Gladiatrix --A YIN-YANG RABBIT HOLE - If you haven't read this...
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Bella Dancer
- Mar 15, 2022
- 21 min
I AM NOT AN OBJECT - More Rape & Death Threats
The words I'm about to share with you from my oldest journal aren’t pretty. They correspond with some of the ugliest things humans can do...
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Bella Dancer
- Feb 26, 2022
- 15 min
BANNED FROM IG - I Must Be Doing Something Right
It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society. ~Krishna Morti Said to me by my gamer friends while...
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Bella Dancer
- Dec 29, 2021
- 26 min
FAERIE LIGHTS IN THE FOREST - How I Spent My Midwinter RebirthDay
It might not happen this year. The big PTSD anniversary reaction when somebody hacks me off by getting drunk and then getting behind the...
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Bella Dancer
- Dec 22, 2021
- 6 min
20 YEARS AGO TODAY - The One Year Anniversary of My RebirthDay
It's the Winter Solstice, so y'all know what that means around here. I keep wanting to write another 20 Years Ago Today post about how...
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Bella Dancer
- Nov 10, 2021
- 17 min
BEHIND THE VEIL: Hiding Things Underground - My Lindsey Stirling Journey 5
Continued from MY JOURNEY WITH LINDSEY STIRLING: --THE MUSE IN THE MOON: A Thank You to My Muse & My Supporters --BRAVE ENOUGH: To Fight...
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Bella Dancer
- Nov 3, 2021
- 15 min
LOST GIRLS: Rise Again. And Again. And Once More - My Lindsey Stirling Journey 4
Continued from MY JOURNEY WITH LINDSEY STIRLING: --THE MUSE IN THE MOON: A Thank You to My Muse & My Supporters --BRAVE ENOUGH: To Fight...
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Bella Dancer
- Oct 28, 2021
- 14 min
TRANSCENDING INTO LIGHT: And Taking Flight - My Lindsey Stirling Journey 3
Continued from MY JOURNEY WITH LINDSEY STIRLING: --THE MUSE IN THE MOON: A Thank You to My Muse & My Supporters --BRAVE ENOUGH: To Fight...
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Bella Dancer
- Sep 13, 2021
- 10 min
9/11 - 20 Years Ago Yesterday
I only have three brief memories and one email from the entire 9/11 catastrophe. The flashes are seared into my mind like short, punchy...
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Bella Dancer
- Aug 3, 2021
- 23 min
TBI SURVIVAL FOR MILD-TO-MODERATE LONG-HAULERS - Lessons From 20 Years of Tripe
As y’all know, I don’t often do the list thing, and I certainly don't do the short, snappy ten-point list. If this post is too long and...
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Bella Dancer
- Jul 26, 2021
- 5 min
STRUGGLE - Watching Nature Persevere
A few weeks after my big car wreck, my dad sent this to me. It became one of the main metaphors of my recovery from severe whiplash, TBI...
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Bella Dancer
- Jun 24, 2021
- 14 min
GOTTA WHIP IT OUT - How I Practice Mindfulness With My Phone Camera
My mom and I joke all the time on our nature walks - "Oooh, gotta whip it out!" We're referring to our phone cameras, of course. What did...
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Bella Dancer
- Jun 10, 2021
- 2 min
I AM ANTI-NEO - A Poem About Falling
What the fuck am I doing? I have no clue anymore I especially don't know why I pace this ledge And its crumbling edge That flirts with...
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Bella Dancer
- Jan 31, 2021
- 15 min
THE GREAT "WHITE BELLY DANCER" WAR OF 2014 - And How It Finished Off My Career
In May 2013, I had a seizure onstage. It was just one of those little blip-of-a-seizures, but in the middle of a dance, a blip is a big...
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Bella Dancer
- Jan 18, 2021
- 10 min
BE-FRIE...ST-NDS: Purging, Keeping, Losing, Releasing
Except for those of us who don't have reliable access to our memories... If you're just joining us, you may not know that my mom is one...
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Bella Dancer
- Jan 7, 2021
- 7 min
"DO YOU SEE ROADBLOCKS OR OPPORTUNITIES?" the abled male said to the disabled female.
I love when the abled attempt to use their simple metaphors on the disabled, and then run in a cricket-chirping fashion when we respond....
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Bella Dancer
- Jan 2, 2021
- 16 min
SIT-REP: Holiday Hell 2000 -The Car Wreck Journals
If you're just joining us, the following SitRep journal entries and letters to my loved ones come from this car crash. If you prefer this...
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