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Memoir Table of Contents
Welcome Aboard!
--"Izzy, how did you start dancing?"
--"What got you into martial arts?"
--"What kind of dancer/martial artist/writer are you?
--"How do you deal with brain damage, bodily injury and
C-PTSD, yet still dance, write, train, live the way you do?"
--"How do you still find joy and beauty amidst pain and loss?"
--"Wow, you should write your memoirs!"
This Is My Story
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Bella Dancer
- Jan 8
- 14 min
MY HOLIDAY FLIGHT - No, Not That Kind of Flight
Holiday flight??? Ohhhh, yeah, this year a lot of people had-- No. I mean flight from my home. Blessedly, I was not one of the people...
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Bella Dancer
- Sep 26, 2022
- 5 min
WOOT! Website Organization: Achieved
It is done. Whufffff. Remember last year when I obliterated my old website? I got really frustrated with the worlds of Advertising,...
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Bella Dancer
- May 28, 2022
- 19 min
THE INCONCEIVABLE - ASSumptions About the Gladiatrix
Continued from: --GLADIATORS HIJACK MY LIFE - How I Started Writing My Gladiatrix --GLADIATRIX?! - "Gladia-what?" Female Gladiator...
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Bella Dancer
- May 7, 2022
- 19 min
A YIN-YANG RABBIT HOLE - Straddling the Feminine-Masculine Spectrum
Eartly 20s Tomboy Glitter-Grrl My friends and foes, we’re about to tumble down a rabbit hole, and some of it is a bit volcanic. “Nooooo,”...
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Bella Dancer
- Apr 21, 2022
- 6 min
DAMSEL TO DANGEROUS: Journey of a Warrior Princess
...Even so, it will take many, many years to undo the damage caused by that rape threat. It will take even longer for me to stop...
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Bella Dancer
- Apr 8, 2022
- 16 min
MOVING ON: A Crucifix, Sandalwood & Lemon Lysol
We've finally made it to the last chapter of this series about #MeToo, rape and death threats, violence, psychological abuse,...
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Bella Dancer
- Apr 7, 2022
- 19 min
BULLSH!T MANWICH - The Lies We Believe (And What We Parrot Ourselves)
Continued from: I AM NOT AN OBJECT - More Rape & Death Threats CLOVEN FRUIT - Dodging Devils in the Pale Moonlight DROWNING - When the...
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Bella Dancer
- Mar 22, 2022
- 9 min
SOLSTICE IN THE UNDERTHING; EQUINOX IN SPRING - Making, Breaking. Tending, Mending.
Our tale is close to making the turn now. We’re about to finally head back up from the Underworld, and what better way to celebrate that...
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Bella Dancer
- Mar 21, 2022
- 23 min
DROWNING - When the Rum Runs Through
This is NOT a safe space. If you're new around here, please take note of the titles. Because we don't pull punches and use coded...
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Bella Dancer
- Mar 19, 2022
- 23 min
CLOVEN FRUIT: Dodging Devils in the Pale Moonlight
This is NOT a safe space. If you're new around here, please take note of the titles. Because we don't pull punches and use coded...
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Bella Dancer
- Mar 15, 2022
- 21 min
I AM NOT AN OBJECT - More Rape & Death Threats
The words I'm about to share with you from my oldest journal aren’t pretty. They correspond with some of the ugliest things humans can do...
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Bella Dancer
- Feb 24, 2022
- 1 min
RUSSIA & UKRAINE: Why I Write What I Write
This is why I write about childhood bullying. "OMGawwwwwd, it happened so long ago. Get over it!" Yup, it did. And it's all the same...
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Bella Dancer
- Feb 23, 2022
- 19 min
FAWN, FREEZE, FIGHT, FLEE - How I Escaped That Rape Threat
If the title didn’t warn you how ugly things have been around here these few weeks, I can’t get much more explicit. Yet we're about...
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Bella Dancer
- Feb 22, 2022
- 22 min
"YOU OWE ME" - Sexual Coercion, Expectations & Assault
Continued from: JERRY-RIGGING - Building My First Set of Armor BUILDING ARMOR - The Hard Way THE DAMSEL - Predators, Instincts, “Nice...
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Bella Dancer
- Feb 16, 2022
- 26 min
THE DAMSEL: Predators, Instincts, "Nice Girls" & Neurodivergence
If you missed all the trigger warnings and the subject matter from the last post, I suggest you go back and read it. Continued from:...
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Bella Dancer
- Feb 3, 2022
- 20 min
BUILDING ARMOR - THE HARD WAY: Some Hard-Hitting Lessons From My HIS-Story
Continued from: THE FIGHTERS - Gawking at My First Heavy Weapons Tournament DAMSEL OUT OF DIS-DRESS - My First Time in Heavy Armor...
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Bella Dancer
- Jan 29, 2022
- 8 min
JERRY-RIGGING - Building My First Set of Armor
Continued from: THE FIGHTERS - Gawking at My First Heavy Weapons Tournament DAMSEL OUT OF DIS-DRESS: My First Time in Heavy Armor June...
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Bella Dancer
- Jan 10, 2022
- 19 min
DAMSEL OUT OF DIS-DRESS - My First Time In Heavy Armor
Continued from: THE TREBUCHET - A Siege Engine Knocks My Life 163 Degrees Sideways THE SHIRE - Making Garb, Travel Plans and a Home in...
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Bella Dancer
- Jan 2, 2022
- 6 min
ME & THE TREE - Old, Beautiful, Broken Creatures
People like to call me broken. Although it’s not a word that I prefer to identify with, I suppose it could be argued that way. On the...
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