Bella Dancer
MOVING ON: A Crucifix, Sandalwood & Lemon Lysol
We've finally made it to the last chapter of this series about #MeToo, rape and death threats, violence, psychological abuse,...
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Memoir Table of Contents
Welcome Aboard!
--"Izzy, how did you start dancing?"
--"What got you into martial arts?"
--"What kind of dancer/martial artist/writer are you?
--"How do you deal with brain damage, bodily injury and
C-PTSD, yet still dance, write, train, live the way you do?"
--"How do you still find joy and beauty amidst pain and loss?"
--"Wow, you should write your memoirs!"
This Is My Story
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Bella Dancer
- Apr 7, 2022
- 19 min
BULLSH!T MANWICH - The Lies We Believe (And What We Parrot Ourselves)
Continued from: I AM NOT AN OBJECT - More Rape & Death Threats CLOVEN FRUIT - Dodging Devils in the Pale Moonlight DROWNING - When the...
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Bella Dancer
- Mar 15, 2022
- 21 min
I AM NOT AN OBJECT - More Rape & Death Threats
The words I'm about to share with you from my oldest journal aren’t pretty. They correspond with some of the ugliest things humans can do...
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Bella Dancer
- Feb 26, 2022
- 15 min
BANNED FROM IG - I Must Be Doing Something Right
It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society. ~Krishna Morti Said to me by my gamer friends while...
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Bella Dancer
- Feb 24, 2022
- 1 min
RUSSIA & UKRAINE: Why I Write What I Write
This is why I write about childhood bullying. "OMGawwwwwd, it happened so long ago. Get over it!" Yup, it did. And it's all the same...
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Bella Dancer
- Feb 22, 2022
- 22 min
"YOU OWE ME" - Sexual Coercion, Expectations & Assault
Continued from: JERRY-RIGGING - Building My First Set of Armor BUILDING ARMOR - The Hard Way THE DAMSEL - Predators, Instincts, “Nice...
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Bella Dancer
- Feb 16, 2022
- 26 min
THE DAMSEL: Predators, Instincts, "Nice Girls" & Neurodivergence
If you missed all the trigger warnings and the subject matter from the last post, I suggest you go back and read it. Continued from:...
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Bella Dancer
- Nov 3, 2021
- 15 min
LOST GIRLS: Rise Again. And Again. And Once More - My Lindsey Stirling Journey 4
Continued from MY JOURNEY WITH LINDSEY STIRLING: --THE MUSE IN THE MOON: A Thank You to My Muse & My Supporters --BRAVE ENOUGH: To Fight...
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Bella Dancer
- Oct 28, 2021
- 14 min
TRANSCENDING INTO LIGHT: And Taking Flight - My Lindsey Stirling Journey 3
Continued from MY JOURNEY WITH LINDSEY STIRLING: --THE MUSE IN THE MOON: A Thank You to My Muse & My Supporters --BRAVE ENOUGH: To Fight...
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Bella Dancer
- Jul 11, 2021
- 18 min
DRAMA-QUEEN - How I Bombed As a Theater Major, Yet Acquired a Key to Great Acting
“And what do you want to be when you grow up?” Adults love asking kids that question. I find myself parroting it to children I meet. Some...
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Bella Dancer
- Jul 6, 2021
- 10 min
SECRETS THAT LIE HIDDEN - Mary Wigman & Expressionist Dance 2
Continued from: AN EXPRESSION...A SPEAKING OUT - Mary Wigman & Expressionist Dance ...Expressionism was part of the broad Modernist...
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Bella Dancer
- Jun 13, 2021
- 8 min
AFFIRMATIONS - From Acceptance to the Zero Point Potential of Creation
Image by Dennis Nejtek I really wanted to dance tonight, but my body is not ready. It's too busy healing a new tooth implant and...
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Bella Dancer
- May 5, 2021
- 7 min
VILLAINS & SIDECHICKS - The Other Characters That Made Me...
INCOMING: Shocking, offensive labels. From me? I know. Shocking. CONTINUED FROM: SHE-ROS & VILLAINS - The Characters That Made Me...
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Bella Dancer
- Mar 6, 2021
- 13 min
BEAUTIFUL, SEXY, SILLY, SAVVY: Unearthing Missing Black Muses & Founders
Toward the end of Black History Month, when I became inspired to write this post, I had sooooo hoped to complete it in the week I had...
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Bella Dancer
- Feb 17, 2021
- 21 min
WELL CRAP, NOW I'M TOO WHITE - Part 3: My CON-Fusing Search To Find Home
If you're just joining us, I highly recommend that you read these first: --THE GREAT "WHITE BELLY DANCER" WAR OF 2014 --IF *I'M* NOT...
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Bella Dancer
- Jan 18, 2021
- 10 min
BE-FRIE...ST-NDS: Purging, Keeping, Losing, Releasing
Except for those of us who don't have reliable access to our memories... If you're just joining us, you may not know that my mom is one...
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Bella Dancer
- Jan 16, 2021
- 13 min
HOLDING OUT FOR A HERO...Or At Least Graduation
I didn't break up with Shane after that horrible day on the rock. Well, not to his knowledge. I fully own to taking the cowardly route....
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Bella Dancer
- Jan 11, 2021
- 14 min
CINDER-BELLA - Ballrooms, Ballplayers, Boulders & Byrds
Continued from: TRUE BLUE - The Quarterback & the Cheerleader Remember how I said that, with every year, I became less and less a member...
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Bella Dancer
- Oct 31, 2020
- 16 min
A LOVE LETTER TO A FEW OF MY BULLIES - As We Approach 50
Do you have any idea how often I think about you all? The ruts in my neural pathways keep your voices on auto-repeat just over my...
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Bella Dancer
- Jun 30, 2020
- 15 min
HOW I BECAME (silent)
Sticks & Stones, Love — but words can do deeper damage (especially the ones we strangle in our throats). Ah, the difference 2 years can...
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