Bella Dancer
RUSSIA & UKRAINE: Why I Write What I Write
This is why I write about childhood bullying. "OMGawwwwwd, it happened so long ago. Get over it!" Yup, it did. And it's all the same...
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Memoir Table of Contents
Welcome Aboard!
--"Izzy, how did you start dancing?"
--"What got you into martial arts?"
--"What kind of dancer/martial artist/writer are you?
--"How do you deal with brain damage, bodily injury and
C-PTSD, yet still dance, write, train, live the way you do?"
--"How do you still find joy and beauty amidst pain and loss?"
--"Wow, you should write your memoirs!"
This Is My Story
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Bella Dancer
- Feb 16, 2022
- 26 min
THE DAMSEL: Predators, Instincts, "Nice Girls" & Neurodivergence
If you missed all the trigger warnings and the subject matter from the last post, I suggest you go back and read it. Continued from:...
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Bella Dancer
- Aug 20, 2021
- 16 min
TOMORROW...MAYBE - My Obsessions with Annie, Acting, Singing & Dance
Continued from: --CAT SCRATCH FEVER - My Oldest Obsession ...you have noooooo idea how much I confine this kitty-cat obsession to the...
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Bella Dancer
- May 5, 2021
- 7 min
VILLAINS & SIDECHICKS - The Other Characters That Made Me...
INCOMING: Shocking, offensive labels. From me? I know. Shocking. CONTINUED FROM: SHE-ROS & VILLAINS - The Characters That Made Me...
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Bella Dancer
- Oct 31, 2020
- 16 min
A LOVE LETTER TO A FEW OF MY BULLIES - As We Approach 50
Do you have any idea how often I think about you all? The ruts in my neural pathways keep your voices on auto-repeat just over my...
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Bella Dancer
- Oct 25, 2020
- 12 min
KARATE KIDS: How Body Painting Gone Wrong Led Me to the Dojo
April 2005 32 years old He’s cast me in the role of Kali, the Indian Goddess of Destruction, among other things. (1, 2) This has been a...
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Bella Dancer
- Oct 25, 2020
- 7 min
A WEEK IN THE LIFE A PSYCHO-SLUT: Part 2 - TGIFF
Continued from: My Adventures on Monday-Thursday As stated last time: If the title didn't warn you that this one's about to get ugly,...
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Bella Dancer
- Oct 25, 2020
- 14 min
A WEEK IN THE LIFE OF A PSYCHO-SLUT: Rumors, Labels & Violence
If the title didn't warn you that this one's about to get ugly, then you must not know me very well yet. If you have school shooter...
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Bella Dancer
- Oct 18, 2020
- 16 min
GLOBAL WARMING: The Future Problem Solvers Solve Some Problems
I'm going to let you in today, right up close where I live. You may not want to know me this intimately. You may not want to know this...
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Bella Dancer
- Oct 6, 2020
- 11 min
ONE WAY OR ANOTHER - A Subtle Slice of the MeToo Problem
Continued from: TAKE THE SHOT--A Tomboy Cheerleader’s First Crush & Burn I hope you read the title, because that's what we're going to be...
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Bella Dancer
- Oct 5, 2020
- 10 min
TAKE THE SHOT - A Tomboy Cheerleader's First Crush & Burn
Spring 1986 Seventh Grade I’ve done it! This is the 80s, man. Girls no longer have to wait for a boy to make the first move. Forget...
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Bella Dancer
- Jul 1, 2020
- 13 min
THE BASE: SOLID GOLD REBEL - Where BellaDancer & The Beast Began
**WRITTEN ON MEDIUM MAY 9, 2020 Second Grade Fall From my bedroom, I hear the front door go ka-thump! I do a little jig. Free! My fifteen...
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Bella Dancer
- Jul 1, 2020
- 13 min
LOVE-BOMBS FROM HELL: The Unenviable Arts of Learning Hatred
Fifth Grade: Music Room Spring “Who just did that?” Ms. Green asks, standing up from the piano bench. “Who just hit that high note?” I...
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Bella Dancer
- Jul 1, 2020
- 13 min
IN THE TRENCHES: A Tale About Being "All In This Together"
4/30/2020 As I sit on my patio after having video-dinner with my parents, I contemplate one of the topics that dominated our...
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Bella Dancer
- Jun 30, 2020
- 14 min
THE WORST THING I EVER DID AS A KID: On Reaching for the One-Ring
Canva: Photo by Juan Pablo Arenas Fourth Grade Fall 1981 There is an open spot in Queenie’s court. Princess is on the outs. (Again.) I...
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Bella Dancer
- Jun 30, 2020
- 15 min
HOW I BECAME (silent)
Sticks & Stones, Love — but words can do deeper damage (especially the ones we strangle in our throats). Ah, the difference 2 years can...
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Bella Dancer
- Jun 29, 2020
- 9 min
"HUSH, LITTLE GIRL" - Breaking the Choke-Chain Around Trauma & Abuse
I have a terrible history of throttling myself with a choke chain in order to protect the not-so-innocent (and thereby myself, in some...
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Bella Dancer
- Jun 29, 2020
- 12 min
DOGS, CATS & THREAD SPOOLS: Complex PTSD on Frontal Lobe Damage
“You know how you get scared or worried or nervous but you don’t want to be scared or worried or nervous so you push it to the back of...
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Bella Dancer
- May 3, 2017
- 2 min
CAN'T TOUCH THIS - My Self-Lurvy Playlist
I believed them. That was the problem--I believed the wrong people. Instead of listening to the ones who told me I was varied kinds of...
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