Bella Dancer
DAMSEL TO DANGEROUS: Journey of a Warrior Princess
...Even so, it will take many, many years to undo the damage caused by that rape threat. It will take even longer for me to stop...
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Memoir Table of Contents
Welcome Aboard!
--"Izzy, how did you start dancing?"
--"What got you into martial arts?"
--"What kind of dancer/martial artist/writer are you?
--"How do you deal with brain damage, bodily injury and
C-PTSD, yet still dance, write, train, live the way you do?"
--"How do you still find joy and beauty amidst pain and loss?"
--"Wow, you should write your memoirs!"
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This Is My Story
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Bella Dancer
- Apr 7, 2022
- 19 min
BULLSH!T MANWICH - The Lies We Believe (And What We Parrot Ourselves)
Continued from: I AM NOT AN OBJECT - More Rape & Death Threats CLOVEN FRUIT - Dodging Devils in the Pale Moonlight DROWNING - When the...
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Bella Dancer
- Mar 19, 2022
- 23 min
CLOVEN FRUIT: Dodging Devils in the Pale Moonlight
This is NOT a safe space. If you're new around here, please take note of the titles. Because we don't pull punches and use coded...
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Bella Dancer
- Mar 15, 2022
- 21 min
I AM NOT AN OBJECT - More Rape & Death Threats
The words I'm about to share with you from my oldest journal aren’t pretty. They correspond with some of the ugliest things humans can do...
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Bella Dancer
- Feb 26, 2022
- 15 min
BANNED FROM IG - I Must Be Doing Something Right
It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society. ~Krishna Morti Said to me by my gamer friends while...
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Bella Dancer
- Feb 24, 2022
- 1 min
RUSSIA & UKRAINE: Why I Write What I Write
This is why I write about childhood bullying. "OMGawwwwwd, it happened so long ago. Get over it!" Yup, it did. And it's all the same...
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Bella Dancer
- Feb 23, 2022
- 19 min
FAWN, FREEZE, FIGHT, FLEE - How I Escaped That Rape Threat
If the title didn’t warn you how ugly things have been around here these few weeks, I can’t get much more explicit. Yet we're about...
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Bella Dancer
- Feb 22, 2022
- 22 min
"YOU OWE ME" - Sexual Coercion, Expectations & Assault
Continued from: JERRY-RIGGING - Building My First Set of Armor BUILDING ARMOR - The Hard Way THE DAMSEL - Predators, Instincts, “Nice...
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Bella Dancer
- Feb 16, 2022
- 26 min
THE DAMSEL: Predators, Instincts, "Nice Girls" & Neurodivergence
If you missed all the trigger warnings and the subject matter from the last post, I suggest you go back and read it. Continued from:...
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Bella Dancer
- Feb 3, 2022
- 20 min
BUILDING ARMOR - THE HARD WAY: Some Hard-Hitting Lessons From My HIS-Story
Continued from: THE FIGHTERS - Gawking at My First Heavy Weapons Tournament DAMSEL OUT OF DIS-DRESS - My First Time in Heavy Armor...
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Bella Dancer
- Jan 29, 2022
- 8 min
JERRY-RIGGING - Building My First Set of Armor
Continued from: THE FIGHTERS - Gawking at My First Heavy Weapons Tournament DAMSEL OUT OF DIS-DRESS: My First Time in Heavy Armor June...
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Bella Dancer
- Oct 25, 2020
- 12 min
KARATE KIDS: How Body Painting Gone Wrong Led Me to the Dojo
April 2005 32 years old He’s cast me in the role of Kali, the Indian Goddess of Destruction, among other things. (1, 2) This has been a...
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Bella Dancer
- Oct 6, 2020
- 11 min
GETTING AWAY SCOT-FREE - But Not From the Church
Continued from: THOSE SUMMER NIGHTS - Sneaking Around with Badboys at Dusk July 1986 13 years old …terrified I’ll hear the too-familiar...
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Bella Dancer
- Oct 6, 2020
- 18 min
THOSE SUMMER NIGHTS - Sneaking Around With Badboys at Dusk
Can I tell you how often in my life that I have felt like Hannah Baker from 13 Reasons Why? The earliest examples in the show come from...
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Bella Dancer
- Oct 6, 2020
- 11 min
ONE WAY OR ANOTHER - A Subtle Slice of the MeToo Problem
Continued from: TAKE THE SHOT--A Tomboy Cheerleader’s First Crush & Burn I hope you read the title, because that's what we're going to be...
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Bella Dancer
- Oct 1, 2020
- 18 min
DYE JOB: How a Coin & Fringe Bra Literally Saved My Life
**WRITTEN ON MEDIUM JUNE 28, 2020 Fall 1991 — In my freshman dorm room just after I started college March 1992 Nineteen years old We...
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Bella Dancer
- Jun 30, 2020
- 13 min
TRAPPED INDOORS WITH MY SKELETONS: Getting Repressed Memories Back Amidst Isolation
February 26, 2001, 7:32 a.m. 28 years old My eyes pop open as I claw for a ragged gasp. I stare at the canopy above my bed. Unblinking....
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Bella Dancer
- Jan 26, 2019
- 8 min
SCROLL ON, CITIZEN - My Response to Dicks
​ ​Welcome to my creative recovery--the peeking out of a few glittered toes from the shadows. I've been lurking here a long time, playing...
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