Bella Dancer
THE (S)HE-RO'S JOURNEY 4: Writing Another Kind of Hope
My friends and foes, we’ve been tumbling down a rabbit hole for nine posts now, and some of it was a bit volcanic. “Nooooo,” you say,...
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Memoir Table of Contents
Welcome Aboard!
--"Izzy, how did you start dancing?"
--"What got you into martial arts?"
--"What kind of dancer/martial artist/writer are you?
--"How do you deal with brain damage, bodily injury and
C-PTSD, yet still dance, write, train, live the way you do?"
--"How do you still find joy and beauty amidst pain and loss?"
--"Wow, you should write your memoirs!"
This Is My Story
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Bella Dancer
- Apr 8, 2022
- 16 min
MOVING ON: A Crucifix, Sandalwood & Lemon Lysol
We've finally made it to the last chapter of this series about #MeToo, rape and death threats, violence, psychological abuse,...
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Bella Dancer
- Apr 7, 2022
- 19 min
BULLSH!T MANWICH - The Lies We Believe (And What We Parrot Ourselves)
Continued from: I AM NOT AN OBJECT - More Rape & Death Threats CLOVEN FRUIT - Dodging Devils in the Pale Moonlight DROWNING - When the...
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Bella Dancer
- Mar 21, 2022
- 23 min
DROWNING - When the Rum Runs Through
This is NOT a safe space. If you're new around here, please take note of the titles. Because we don't pull punches and use coded...
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Bella Dancer
- Mar 19, 2022
- 23 min
CLOVEN FRUIT: Dodging Devils in the Pale Moonlight
This is NOT a safe space. If you're new around here, please take note of the titles. Because we don't pull punches and use coded...
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Bella Dancer
- Mar 15, 2022
- 21 min
I AM NOT AN OBJECT - More Rape & Death Threats
The words I'm about to share with you from my oldest journal aren’t pretty. They correspond with some of the ugliest things humans can do...
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Bella Dancer
- Feb 23, 2022
- 19 min
FAWN, FREEZE, FIGHT, FLEE - How I Escaped That Rape Threat
If the title didn’t warn you how ugly things have been around here these few weeks, I can’t get much more explicit. Yet we're about...
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Bella Dancer
- Feb 16, 2022
- 26 min
THE DAMSEL: Predators, Instincts, "Nice Girls" & Neurodivergence
If you missed all the trigger warnings and the subject matter from the last post, I suggest you go back and read it. Continued from:...
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Bella Dancer
- Dec 29, 2021
- 26 min
FAERIE LIGHTS IN THE FOREST - How I Spent My Midwinter RebirthDay
It might not happen this year. The big PTSD anniversary reaction when somebody hacks me off by getting drunk and then getting behind the...
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Bella Dancer
- Dec 22, 2021
- 6 min
20 YEARS AGO TODAY - The One Year Anniversary of My RebirthDay
It's the Winter Solstice, so y'all know what that means around here. I keep wanting to write another 20 Years Ago Today post about how...
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Bella Dancer
- Jul 11, 2021
- 18 min
DRAMA-QUEEN - How I Bombed As a Theater Major, Yet Acquired a Key to Great Acting
“And what do you want to be when you grow up?” Adults love asking kids that question. I find myself parroting it to children I meet. Some...
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Bella Dancer
- Jan 18, 2021
- 10 min
BE-FRIE...ST-NDS: Purging, Keeping, Losing, Releasing
Except for those of us who don't have reliable access to our memories... If you're just joining us, you may not know that my mom is one...
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Bella Dancer
- Jan 2, 2021
- 16 min
SIT-REP: Holiday Hell 2000 -The Car Wreck Journals
If you're just joining us, the following SitRep journal entries and letters to my loved ones come from this car crash. If you prefer this...
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Bella Dancer
- Jan 2, 2021
- 14 min
MY RAWR-ING 2020 IN REVIEW: And a Shameless Request for Patronage
RAWRing '20s Grrrl New Years Eve 2020 EDIT: Dain Bramage & Covid strike again! Huh...so apparently it was actually the first day of the...
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Bella Dancer
- Dec 25, 2020
- 13 min
2020 WTF: Part 2 - My Holiday WTF Season 20 Years Ago
Continued from: --MY 20TH ANNIVERSARY HOLIDAY TRIGGER DAY: WT-Actual-F, 2020?! --Want to start at the beginning of this anniversary...
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Bella Dancer
- Dec 25, 2020
- 8 min
MY ANNIVERSARY HOLIDAY TRIGGER DAY: WT-Actual-F, 2020?!
🔥Written yesterday...left to ferment overnight...still highly combustible.🔥 Before we get to the mushy stuff: 🎄This one is for The...
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Bella Dancer
- Oct 16, 2020
- 10 min
A SENSITIVE ORCHID IN A DANDELION WORLD - HSP, TBI & PTSD
Some people might say that orchids are sooooo much prettier than dandelions. I am not one of them. I adore dandelions. As a kid, it used...
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Bella Dancer
- Jun 30, 2020
- 13 min
TRAPPED INDOORS WITH MY SKELETONS: Getting Repressed Memories Back Amidst Isolation
February 26, 2001, 7:32 a.m. 28 years old My eyes pop open as I claw for a ragged gasp. I stare at the canopy above my bed. Unblinking....
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Bella Dancer
- Jun 29, 2020
- 4 min
FROM DARKNESS: THE LIGHT - A letter from Coronavirus at Spring Equinox
3/22/20 - Written for Medium STOP. 👇 Click PLAY. 👇 ✨✨PLEASE.✨✨ 💖now💖 Only then do I ask you to read my words. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh… Are...
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Bella Dancer
- Jun 29, 2020
- 4 min
WHY SO SERIOUS? - Utilizing Laughter in Rough Seas
3/21/20 - Written for Medium Laughter is one of the most powerful immune boosters, stress calmers, and depression antidotes around — and...
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