NAVIGATION:

1001 TALES

--"Izzy, how did you start dancing?"

--"What got you into martial arts?"

--"What kind of dancer/martial artist/writer are you?

--"How do you deal with brain damage, bodily injury and cPTSD, yet still dance, write, train, live the way you do?"

--"How do you still find joy and beauty amidst pain and loss?"

--"Wow, you should write your memoirs!" 

This Is My Story

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IN THE ORDER I WROTE THEM HERE 

People come to read about my life for many reasons. Often, their curiosities are pinpointed around one or two particular topics, but they're not interested in a bunch of the other issues I cover. The way I tell stories is 100% driven by The Muse, so this blog is a Scheherazadean labyrinth.

In fact, I really wouldn't call it a blog anymore. It started out that way--and failed. And started again and failed and sorta gained some momentum and then sputtered and died once more.

I finally allowed it to become what people have been asking me to write for decades: my memoirs.

 

Until I began using this interactive, interconnected, multimedia format, I've never been able to do that because I've never been capable of segregating out the tales into categories that would fit into memoir-specific book lengths, and because the threads are too interconnected. One tale gives way to another topic, or that tale over there needs clarification and some background information. Guaranteed all my topic series have holes because, to tell the full story I would have to go off on another tangent.

Sometimes I do just that, and it can be frustrating for someone who is wanting a specific aspect of my story, not the full autobiographical account. So I have created this Navigation page to help you find your way through the multilayer maze. 

Many of these tales are NSFW or written for anyone under the age of 18, so abandon ship now if you need it to be. You may wind up learning way more about me than you ever wanted to know. You're about to get a look at my holey underwear and the skeletons rotting in my closets. For example, there are many, many reasons I became a martial artist. As such, I don't pull punches when I write about them. I do change names to protect the not-so-innocent, and I sometimes obscure or mix-match identifying details of our...cast of characters. But I rarely give trigger warnings because I'm a storyteller, first and foremost.

Consider yourself warned.

Now that I've begun telling these tales through this online medium, I don't think I would ever try to make books out of it all again. (If somebody else can see how and wants to publish them, I'm all ears.) At this point, I'm too attached to being able to give you the soundtrack that is such a vital piece of my story. I'm a dancer, after all, and music is my life's breath. Through sounds and rhythms, I can convey certain aspects of what I feel and think more efficiently and deeply than an entire post of my words.

 

So if you're not playing the music videos, you're actually missing half the movie. 

 

Plus, being in this space allows me to deliver any corresponding dance performances hand-in-hand with the stories that inspired them. 

We're going to be taking some long treks into the Underworld. That's because I've spent much of my life down there. It's why I am a devotee of Persephone. Like Her, I have found beauty in the darkness there, and now I choose to go back and forth. It gives me balance. It makes me happy. 

So rest assured, if we seem to be diving down and down and further down with no glorious light in sight, it's because I couldn't have learned what I learned and become who I am without being stuck down there longer than I would have wanted.

 

And it's because there is no Almighty Overcomer's Hollywood Ending. 

There's just my life. 

NAVIGATION

DANCE

DRAWING ROOM - The Healing Power of Dance

SISTARS - Ode to My Sisters

SHHHH... - The Body Knows When and Where To Go

FISH SLAP - The First Time I Tore My Meniscus

HIGH ON CRAIC - Dancing Like I Do

THE DAY I PICKED PICTUS - Beyond Belly Dance

EQUINOX: FAILURE TO LAUNCH - Adventures in Making an Online School

MUTTS, HACKS & BASTARDS - The Creative Brain

EVERYTHING WAS BEAUTIFUL AT THE BALLET - I Mean Belly - No, Bella

PHOENIXING - When I REALLY Tore My Meniscus

THE KNEE INCIDENT - A Vloggy Adventure

WHAT CAN I DO WHEN I CAN'T DANCE? - Ummm...Dance, Of Course!

A MULTIPOTENTIALITE HSP - I am NOT a Specializer - In Anything

A SENSITIVE ORCHID IN A DANDELION WORLD - HSP, PTSD & TBI

THE MAKING OF BELLA & THE BEAST

THE BASE: SOLID GOLD REBEL - How I Started Dancing

*ALSO* A BELLY DANCER: Pt. 2 - The Making of BellaDancer & the 'Beast

IZZY & ISADORA - DUNCAN THAT IS: Pt. 3 - My First Modern Dance Muse

UGLY DUCKLINGS, SWANS & BIRDS OF OTHER FEATHERS: Pt. 4 - Ballet & Loie Fuller

DYE JOB: Pt. 5 - How a Coin & Fringe Bra Literally Saved My Life

CREATE & INNOVATE

NAKED IN THE ARENA - Vulnerability, Creativity & Bravery

ME & MY MIDDLE FINGER FOAMIES - My Attempt To Do The Scary Thing

BLOGGING LIKE DOUBLE-DUTCH - My Gazillionth Time Trying to Tell These Tales

HIGH ON CRAIC - Dancing Like I Do

THE DAY I PICKED PICTUS - Beyond Belly Dance

LIGHT AT THE END OF THE... - Adventures in Entrepreneurship & Voc Rehab

YEAH, I GOTCHER VALUE: WRITE HERE! - Beyond Soundbytes & 10-Step Lists

BEWARE THE MINOTAUR - Dancing With the Unknown

EQUINOX: FAILURE TO LAUNCH - Adventures in Making an Online School

THE ARENA - A Constant Theme

MUTTS, HACKS & BASTARDS - The Creative Brain

"SENSITIVITY" IS NOT A DIRTY WORD - The Highly Sensitive Person

A MULTIPOTENTIALITE HSP - I am NOT a Specializer - In Anything

A SENSITIVE ORCHID IN A DANDELION WORLD - HSP, PTSD & TBI

HERE AND GONE - Mommy & Me

THE ARTS OF SELF-DEFENSE

EMBODYING THE CREED - Honor, Respect & Jerry-Rigging Learning Disabilities

SCROLL ON, CITIZEN - A Response To Dicks

A SENSITIVE ORCHID IN A DANDELION WORLD - HSP, PTSD & TBI

"What inspired you to become a martial artist?"

--SEE CHILDHOOD BULLYING

--SEE SEX, LOVE & VIOLENCE

BRAIN INJURY

TBI 1: MY TANGLE WITH A DRUNK DRIVER

THE BIG BLUE BEAST - Weeding 18 Years of Paperwork

BLAM: The Night I Was Hit By a Drunk Driver

MORE PRESENTS FROM A DRUNK DRIVER - Traumatic Brain Injury & Scoliosis

DISCOVERING DAIN BRAMAGE - No *Bleepin'* Laughing Matter

"MILD" TBI ISN'T MILD - A Cheesy Poem About Dain Bramage

THE POOL, PIDDLY SNOW & PTSD  

WHAT WAS AND WASN'T INJURED: Proving the Prognosis

TECHNO-LINGO MEDICAL MUMBO-JUMBO: How It Actually Impacts My Life

DOGS, CATS & THREAD SPOOLS - Complex PTSD on Frontal Lobe Damage

A SENSITIVE ORCHID IN A DANDELION WORLD - HSP, PTSD & TBI

TBI 2: DOUBLE-PUNCH TO THE FACE

TBI 3: THE YEAR OF CHRONIC SEIZURES

TBI 4: THE DUDE NOT PAYING ATTENTION AT A STOP SIGN

THE 4-PUNCH COMBO

BETTER THAN "SORRY" - Saying "Thank You" Instead

EMBODYING THE CREED - Honor, Respect & Jerry-Rigging Learning Disabilities

LIGHT AT THE END OF THE... - Adventures in Entrepreneurship & Voc Rehab

UP IS DOWN - Escaping the World of NO

I AIN'T BLOWING SUNSHINE UP ANYBODY'S WAZOO TODAY - My Covid Size 6.5 Boot

AN INTRO - To Me & Traumatic Brain Injury

"SENSITIVITY" IS NOT A DIRTY WORD - The Highly Sensitive Person
 

C-PTSD

 

THE BIG BLUE BEAST - Weeding 18 Years of Paperwork

SCROLL ON, CITIZEN - A Response To Dicks

THE POOL, PIDDLY SNOW & PTSD  

DOGS, CATS & THREAD SPOOLS - Complex PTSD on Frontal Lobe Damage

HUSH LITTLE GIRL - Breaking the Choke Chain Around Trauma & Abuse

UP IS DOWN - Escaping the World of NO

HERE AND GONE - Mommy & Me

"What is your Complex-PTSD from?"

--SEE SEX, LOVE & VIOLENCE

--SEE CHILDHOOD BULLYING

--SEE BRAIN INJURY

--SEE BODILY INJURY

"What do you do to heal it?"

--SEE ALL THE OTHER CATEGORIES

CHILDHOOD BULLYING

 

DOGS, CATS & THREAD SPOOLS - Complex PTSD on Frontal Lobe Damage

HUSH LITTLE GIRL - Breaking the Choke Chain Around Trauma & Abuse

ELEMENTARY SCHOOL ADVENTURES

HOW I BECAME (silent)

THE WORST THING I EVER DID AS A KID - On Reaching For the One-Ring

IN THE TRENCHES - A Tale About Being "All In This Together"

LOVE BOMBS FROM HELL - The Unenviable Arts of Learning Hatred

THE BASE: SOLID GOLD REBEL - How the Class Nerd Became a Cheerleader

JUNIOR HIGH ADVENTURES: BULLYING + BOYS

--SEE SEX, LOVE & VIOLENCE - MY EARLIEST EXPERIENCES

SEX, LOVE & VIOLENCE

DOGS, CATS & THREAD SPOOLS - Complex PTSD on Frontal Lobe Damage

HUSH LITTLE GIRL - Breaking the Choke Chain Around Trauma & Abuse

SHHHH... - The Body Knows When and Where To Go

WHEN IRISH EYES ARE... - A Viking, An Irishman and a Belly Dancer Walk Into A Bar

SCROLL ON, CITIZEN - A Response To Dicks

DYE JOB: How a Coin & Fringe Bra Literally Saved My Life

ONE WAY OR ANOTHER - A Subtle Slice of the MeToo Problem

A MULTIPOTENTIALITE HSP - I am NOT a Specializer - In Anything

A SENSITIVE ORCHID IN A DANDELION WORLD - HSP, PTSD & TBI

MY EARLIEST EXPERIENCES

TRAPPED INDOORS WITH MY SKELETONS - Getting Repressed Memories Back Amidst Isolation

TAKE THE SHOT - A Tomboy Cheerleader's First Crush & Burn

ONE WAY OR ANOTHER - A Subtle Slice of the MeToo Problem

THOSE SUMMER NIGHTS - Sneaking Around With Badboys At Dusk

GETTING AWAY SCOTT FREE - But Not From the Church

I GO TO A FUNERAL - And Come Home With a Date

JONATHAN - The Boy Who Changed Everything

WAITING - For News About Jonathan

GLOBAL WARMING - Brains, Boys & Revenge

BODILY INJURY

MY TANGLE WITH A DRUNK DRIVER

BLAM: Merry Christmas from a Drunk Driver

MORE PRESENTS FROM A DRUNK DRIVER - Traumatic Brain Injury & Scoliosis

WHAT WAS AND WASN'T INJURED: Proving the Prognosis

TECHNO-LINGO MEDICAL MUMBO-JUMBO: How It Actually Impacts My Life

DOGS, CATS & THREAD SPOOLS - Complex PTSD on Frontal Lobe Damage

THE KNEE INCIDENT

FISH SLAP - The First Time I Tore My Meniscus

PHOENIXING - When I REALLY Tore My Meniscus

THE KNEE INCIDENT - A Vloggy Adventure

SLATHERED IN OIL - My Hot New Love Affair

WHAT CAN I DO WHEN I CAN'T DANCE? - Ummm...Dance, Of Course!

THE WHOLE KIT-N-KABOODLE

THE BIG BLUE BEAST - Weeding 18 Years of Paperwork

UP IS DOWN - Escaping the World of NO

EXPERIMENTS IN CHIROPRACTIC  - Upper Cervical

EXPERIMENTS IN CHIROPRACTIC 2 - How Being Stood Up Detoured Me To a Miracle
 

HEALING

NAKED IN THE ARENA - Vulnerability, Creativity & Bravery

SISTARS - Ode to My Sisters

BETTER THAN "SORRY" - Saying "Thank You" Instead

DRAWING ROOM - The Healing Power of Dance

SHHHH... - The Body Knows When and Where To Go

MY SELF-LURVY PLAYLIST - That I Put on When I Need A Pick-Me-Up

LOVE AND CRAP...AND LOVE - On Regret and Grief

BEWARE THE MINOTAUR - Dancing With the Unknown

THE ARENA - A Constant Theme

THE BIG BLUE BEAST - Weeding 18 Years of Paperwork

EMBODYING THE CREED - Honor, Respect & Jerry-Rigging Learning Disabilities

PHOENIXING - I Am the Placebo

THE KNEE INCIDENT - A Vloggy Adventure

SLATHERED IN OIL - My Hot New Love Affair

WHAT CAN I DO WHEN I CAN'T DANCE? - Ummm...Dance, Of Course!

LEARNING TO SAY "YES" - The Ultimate Goddess Retreat

UP IS DOWN - Escaping the World of NO

EXPERIMENTS IN CHIROPRACTIC  - Upper Cervical

EXPERIMENTS IN CHIROPRACTIC 2 - How Being Stood Up Detoured Me To a Miracle

BLACK FRIDAY NEEDS A MAKEOVER

I AIN'T BLOWING SUNSHINE UP ANYBODY'S WAZOO TODAY - My Covid Size 6.5 Boot

FROM DARKNESS: THE LIGHT - A Letter From CoronaVirus on Spring Equinox

WHY SO SERIOUS? - Utilizing Laughter in Rough Seas

DOGS, CATS & THREAD SPOOLS - Complex PTSD on Frontal Lobe Damage

HUSH LITTLE GIRL - Breaking the Choke Chain Around Trauma & Abuse

WABI-SABI: THE BEAUTY OF IMPERFECTION - Learning To Love That Person in the Mirror

SHORT STORIES & ART

WHEN IRISH EYES ARE... - A Viking, An Irishman and a Belly Dancer Walk Into A Bar

BEWARE THE MINOTAUR - Dancing With the Unknown

HADES THINKS HE'S FUNNY - Fun With the Underworld at Equinox

THE TREASURE CHEST (A Faerie's Tale)

 

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

Dig what I do?

I rarely travel to teach anymore and I perform mostly on YouTube

(cuz...Dain Bramage)

(oh yeah, and Pandemic)

And those memoirs I always said I'd publish? They're here on my blog.

If you like my arts and want to help me keep sharing them

You can always BUY ME A COFFEE!

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